let the drummer KICK

Well as you know the month of september is always the beginning of school. I'm not quite sure why they chose the best month of the year to start school because it just makes me want to completely drop out.



I really related to the children in this picture...I feel the exact same way about school right now! This year more than normal I have had absolutely NO motivation for anything. This may be because I am actually an official "senior" which is seriously SO WEIRD!!!

I would have never guessed college would go by so fast. I mean I technically have more than one year of school (obviously...when have I ever known exactly what I want to do with my life??) but it still is so weird to think I have been at BYU for almost FOUR YEARS! It kind of freaks me out some days. It's so crazy to be in this stage in life, in between being a young adult and a real one. You have the comfort of just saying I'm going to school when you don't really have an exact clear plan, but you also have the reality of life flashing in your face every so often that makes you recognize you have to make the most of your time!

So again...I think. A lot. But I just have been pondering how close I am to the end and how I really need to have a plan. I've been so content lately with the fact that all my old plans failed so I haven't REALLY defined a new one. AHHHH! : / It's freaking me out cuz really I would love to just make jewelry, own a floral shop, and write music or something...not go to 4 more years of school to be a physical therapist! So ya that is my head right now...a complete tornado of ideas. Trying to decipher between what I want to do and what I should do...there is quite a difference and I'm trying to find something that involves both!

Anyway this fall has been awesome so far! Probably too much fun cuz it definitely feels like summer still until I look at my planner and see the 4 TESTS I HAVE THIS WEEK!!! The new move was truly what I was supposed to do tho. I miss all my girls at the house so much but I needed the change. Thank goodness I still see the tenders every once in a while! But change truly is necessary sometimes...it is SO hard to do. But when you know it's something you have to do you have to act on it! Well Happy Wednesday...these are all the thoughts I have time to write now! I'll update random events of life soon!

Peace and Love
<3

Thoughts....a BLAST from the PAST

I am a thinker. Always have been, always will be. Not a day goes by where I haven't had a period of time just thinking to myself of life and just randomness.

Today my thoughts went back to a plane ride I experienced a couple months ago on my way to Redding California for our famous family SHASTA TRIP. I had just got done with two weeks of doing EFY in Tacoma Washington and had to fly to Shasta cuz there was NO way I would drive 12 hrs after getting absolutely no sleep all week at EFY. Anyways I probably looked a little homeless and dead with my fluffy, satin red pillow in hand. Naturally this was a great conversation starter. This lady who was standing in front of me complimented it, commented on my look of complete exhaustion and just started talking to me about life. She (Chris) was literally one of those people that could make friends with just about anybody. So we were chatting about books we were reading, our families, our hobbies...we really just spoke until they called our flight in to be seated. And of course by coincidence our seats were right next to each other.

We then talked about her world travels to Africa, India, South America, Australia, Europe...this woman had been literally EVERYWHERE so of course I was drooling listening to all her stories. She just talked and talked about how i just need to GO. The time to travel is now and that it can be done for cheap if you budget wisely. She just kept telling me and telling me how I need to take advantage of this time of my life and learn. She told me these experiences truly shape your life and open your eyes to how other people live. They make you grateful for your circumstances and just how things could always be worse in your life so just have a good attitude and you'll get through anything. AND she told me I looked like a traveler which really made me want to switch flights immediately to Costa Rica or something.

She just was such a pleasant person. Making friends with every one. The lady next to us and her beautiful baby, the old man behind us with a cane who was struggling to walk, the male flight attendant who I'm pretty sure had a secret dream to be a Broadway star because he was VERY dramatic, the little girl who had never been on a plane before...literally everyone around her. I thought to myself I want to be like this woman. She went out of her way to show random people she cared about them. It wasn't anything huge or earth shattering but it made a difference. I saw shy people open up, people with hot tempers cool down, scared children feel at ease...all because of this one darling woman.

It just hit me that day of how often in my life I look at people and think I know what they are like so I just keep to myself. I remember looking at Chris and thinking she was this woman who was rough around the edges, who was unfriendly, and hated the world but with one word she COMPLETELY changed my impression of her and hit me like a ton of bricks how wrong I was about her. She taught me a lot that day and I don't think she even knows it or ever will. I have no way of telling her how much I appreciated my little life lesson from her that day. Her general love of people just literally moved me and made me want to be like her. So from here on out...I will not ever judge. I want to go out of my way to just befriend those around me EVERYONE. I may look weird, I may get a little embarrassed but as Papa James would say...it's better to be looked at as weird and friendly then cold and ignorant. So that is my motto for life...in any aspect. Thank you cute Chris, wherever you are, for your example and literally touching my life that day! <3

music of my week...

songs that have been makin me happy this week:



1. Lisztomania- Phoenix

2. Terrified- Katherine McPhee

3. Helium Hearts- Jason Reeves

4. Is it Any Wonder?- Keane

5. This is Your Life- The Killers

6. Fader- The Temper Trap

7. Back Where I Started- Curtis Peoples

8. Free- Zac Brown Band

9. Have a Little Faith in Me- Mandy Moore

10. For the Summer- Ray Lamontagne

11. Come Back Song- Darius Rucker

12. Love Vibration- Josh Rouse

HAPPY MONDAY!!

Can You Become

So this tender title is the title of the felicity theme song...it's one of those tunes you completely hate at first but it definitely grows on you by the end.



BUT I can officially say now that I have found a favorite show. This show truly was not like any TV show...it felt real, the characters felt like my friends, and I literally thought some of their problems were in my life too ha pathetic i know! Some may think this is a sign to stop watching and maybe hammer out some of these issues at a mental institution or something but to me and my sister this meant to just keep watching, EVERY NIGHT for the last month. one episode...maybe two...maybe six at a time. We were obsessed.



Last night was the finale and don't worry I cried (and by cried I mean almost hysterically bawling) twice. It just was of her graduating and saying bye to all these people that have shaped her life along the journey and it just made me realize how blessed I am to have the people I do in my life. I mean she had a little more luck with boys than I have had lately ha but still...I just really related to this show.



And I may or may not be looking for a man that resembles Ben almost completely...I just have a slight (aka HUGE) crush on the human.



Definitely recommend this show to everyone...it'll change you and make you want someone real that is worth the wait and hard times. Can't believe it's OVER! Next one to start...One Tree Hill baby.