SO MUCH TO DO!!

I CANNOT wait to get started on all the things I want to do this spring/summer. Lets just say I want to keep pretty busy...

Make a FORT out of blankets...(like this one my friend made)


Bike Provo Canyon/Moab Loop

Start Making Jewelry

Windsurfing


Duathlon/Half-Marathon

Start Writing Music/Performing More

READ...A LOT


Transfer Old Photos to Computer

Rock Climb

RED Light Dancing/80's

Hike


Update Photo Albums

Have a Picnic

Make the boys do TurboJam haha


Go Camping

Play Tennis/Basketball

AHHH!! There's SO much to do...can't wait to get it started!! SPRING is FINALLY here!!! <3

Well it looks like I found my new BOYFRIEND...

So tonight was HONESTLY one of the most AMAZING concerts of life!! Seriously...I had no idea he would be so much more amazing live and in person!! This man is Tyler Hilton...



I've loved this man for a while and have seen him on one of my favorite shows OTH...but I had NO CLUE he was so beautiful!! He honestly was one of the cutest/chillest men I have EVER seen. We were all falling in love ha. His new songs seriously speak to me every TIME i listen to them. It was such a fun night...thanks tyler : ) Enjoy one of my fav songs of his!!

a new friend...

I realize this post might mortally offend some humans...
But its how i am. haha and thats all that needs to be said.
This will now be in every bathroom of every apartment or house I live in. It is BRILLIANT. and smells wonderful.



Its called POO-POURRI and the best part is the tagline:
Spritz the bowl before you GO....and no one else will EVER know
So if you ever wanna try it out....check out this website. You WON'T be disappointed ha!!
http://poopourri.com/

my playlist for the week...

So I love music...everyone who knows me knows this!
These songs have been on repeat ALL WEEK:

Someday (Playlist Name)

Dance- Michael Warren
You & Me- Dave Crowder Band
Keep On- Tyler Hilton
Ghosting- Freelance Whales
Opportunity- Pete Murray
Your Love is My Drug- Ke$ha (ya i really put this on here)
Lose Control- Jojo/Timbaland
Float On- Modest Mouse
Little Lies- Dave Barnes
Get Back up- Toby Mac
Around You- Sherwood

Anyways I love music...it might be an addiction.
Some day I MAY need help.

SPRING is here...

So this picture made me happy...
I don't really wanna look like a cow this spring...
but i'd like to look that relaxed.
FINALS are DONE and the sun will be shining SOON!!

<3

hahaha WOW

Well...just realized how horrible my last post was! I promise I don't feel that way that often. That made me sound like I have some serious issues! Everything will work out...if we put our complete trust and faith in Heavenly Father we will be ok. We just have to keep truckin a long and doing the things we know are right and Heavenly Father will open a door just when we think every one is closed. This video seriously always puts my heart and mind into perspective and I just am so grateful for the knowledge of the gospel to always turn to when times get a little rocky! ENJOY!

one of those nights where i'm just done...

sometimes I feel just a little empty...


I've tried to get over it...
I've tried to make things work...
I've tried to give people chances...
CRASH and BURN

I'm DONE.
I'm done comparing to what I used to have.
I'm done falling for guys that aren't interested and soon start dating someone else.
I'm done with never being interested in the guys that actually like me.

Why Can't it Just work like it did before?
A long LONG time ago...

He's been able to move on...why can't I?
I ended it...I knew we weren't supposed to be together
so why does it feel like this?
crappy...

These are some wise words from one of my friends...they seriously spoke to my heart. It's how I feel somedays:

you have no idea how you've altered my heart. I can't move on. I'm stuck. In love with someone that doesn't exist anymore. I can't replace him. I can't rebound, I can't go on- no one's good enough. No one could be better than you. And you aren't even real.

SOMEDAY I'll move on...I just never thought it would have taken this long or would be this painful.

which ROAD to take....

So for some reason this past year has been a year of really deep thoughts. I mean I always have been someone who thinks ALL THE TIME but this year and especially these past few months there seriously has been a hurricane in my head. I think about my life and where I want to be in five years and I just wonder how I am going to get there? I have been questioning every thing and trying to really determine what I want to do with my life. Do i want to be a nurse? Do i want to go on a mission? Do I want to be a family therapist? When will I be able to travel? Will i ever get married? haha : ) I don't know!!



Really all I want to do is finish school and open an etsy shop or write music : ) That is my dream!! I know all of those are awesome jobs but really isn't life about doing what you are passionate about? I want to help people and work with people but you don't have to be a nurse to make a difference in someone's life you can do it anywhere! I am passionate about people and I just feel like I need to further develop talents I actually have already rather than try and pretend I'm really good at science when lets be real I struggle! But we will see, tomorrow I will probably still be dreaming of working in a hospital with the cute children there and will be ready to WHATEVER it takes to get there but we'll see what course I will take. I know the Lord will direct me from doing something I am not supposed to do but ultimately it is up to me to make a decision and make it happen! I just gotta choose!! No more staring at the different roads I could take...it's time to jump aboard the train. Wish Me luck!

Near Death Experience....

Well I guess you could say the Lincoln Escape does not know how to escape danger...On our drive home from Oregon...mother nature decided to produce a blizzard around the Ogden area. People wonder why I hate Utah well ITS BECAUSE IT SNOWS IN APRIL!!

But don't worry...not only did i have to drive in weather conditions that really looked just like this...



I also got in a CAR ACCIDENT!! My first one EVER. AND don't worry....the cop decided to give me a ticket for wreckless driving. Cool ya totally meant to drive into the median....that was exactly my plan!! ugh!! BUT honestly....how did I end up reacting in the end?? I laughed... Mostly because of Megan, Chucks, and Liz's tender comments. They always kill me and lighten the mood. I defintely would have died if they weren't there. ahhh it is time for the SNOW to STOP!!! But all in all...

It could have been horrible and i realize it could have been a hundred time worse. But, it was still horrible and SCARY. We truly are blessed to still be alive. If it happened any earlier or later...Matters would've been a lot different...

The Lord watches out for us. He provides tender mercies when we least expect it.
YES, a car accident sucks and YES it was not fun dragging all of our suitcases through 2 feet of snow in flip flops!!
But, we made it into a hotel, we are all ok and we are safe from the storm!

I love the Lord and am so grateful for all my many blessings. <3