words from mama kay...

So yes I have been posting a lot lately. You can always tell when things like my blog, or my itunes playlists get updated cuz it ALWAYS means I had a test recently. Those are the main things I do when I procrastinate. So lucky you, I'm writing again.

I'm gonna be honest...this past weekend and even the beginning of this week have been a little rough. Just some different things going on in life and trying to plan for the future have just been weighing me down! I'm definitely the type of person that bottles things up, pretends everything is ok, puts on a smile, and then one day has a complete BREAKDOWN! I may or may not have experienced this lately (I promise there's a point to this).

But as usual, the hard moments in life always bring you closer to the Lord, family, friends, and allow you to reconnect with what truly is most important in life. Which is always good for me to remember what my focus should be on.

I swear I have the most amazing people in my life who time after time say things to me that are exactly what I need to hear (my mom being one of them). But this morning I woke up to a short & sweet little facebook message from cute mama kay from Belize. She said something that really touched me:

"...my baby girl the things we want in life that are good for us require effort, dedication and sacrifice, I know you can make it." 

Effort. Dedication. Sacrifice. Those aren't the usual words you hear when going through a hard time. Usually its words like faith, patience, hope, etc. But I loved this new outlook. In order for things to change for the better, especially things we want, we have to be doing something. We have to be "moving"...putting forth more effort, making more sacrifices, doing 100% in all we do and being dedicated to it.

So despite what life throws at us, this can be our new motto. We can all be a little better. There is so much more I can be doing to achieve my goals in life. And when my life is aligned with the Lord's will, everything will work out how it should. I truly believe that and know he cares about us more than we can imagine. He knows what we're going through and will always be there for us when we need him.

Life is the ultimate test. Yes God has to be a good teacher and not give us answers to the test when we want them SO BAD, but it is how we learn and become better. Things will work out they always will and we all be ok.

There's my little pick me up for the day.
And don't worry...I totally got to play my FIRST BUNCO GAME EVER tonight. It was life changing. I feel I have become addicted :)

PEACE and love.

true confessions...

I want a dog.
not down the road.
not in 5 years.
not once I have a house and am married.
RIGHT NOW.

Dogs make me happier than I can even explain.
I love them.
A lot.
And I need one...
ASAP.

Graduation Present?
April's coming soon right?!

Someone PLEASE back me up with this decision...
And don't worry mom and dad, I totally have a friend who's a dog trainer...
training would be a breeze! :)
PEACE and love

sundance 2012

Fact: I hadn't been up snowboarding this ENTIRE winter until yesterday...embarrassing.
Fact: Although the snow looks perfect and beautiful in the picture, it was definitely PURE ICE.
Fact: I may or may not have fallen on my knees a lot (because it was really slippery obviously) and they are now swollen and black and blue. Its pretty cute.
Fact: I definitely need to perfect my toe-side a little more.
Fact: Utah mountains with snow really are beautiful...i have to admit.
Fact: I really enjoy snowboarding and had a lot of fun (despite the icy conditions) but I am definitely a summer girl. Boating, biking, hiking, sun-tanning, watermelon, running outside, sunshine....it is time.

SUMMER please come soon...

I really miss you.

PEACE and love

down the road...

So it has been a while I know. I am still living and breathing. Life just gets a little crazy! Lets just say with school, 3 internships, and graduation coming up...my brain has been goin 800 miles an hour. Not Normal.

I have a lot of decisions to make in these next couple months and it is literally FREAKING me out!!! Where will I live? Where will I work? What will I be doing? How will I pay for that? Can I quit school already? Is stats lecture REALLY that important? These are questions I think about almost on an hourly basis. 

Because let's be real. I've pretty much made up my mind that all I really want to do is pursue photography and maybe go to hair school. Papa James is not the biggest fan of this, especially considering he has been helping with my college tuition for the past five years, but I know I would love it. And I want to be doing something I love for the rest of my life. So...here are my options:

1. WORK all summer, save up some cash cash, and MOVE to any of the below to work some more!!

 
 WASHINGTON D.C. 




 
 SAN DIEGO, CA
And yes. 
I would be HERE everyday.


 
NYC

2. WORK all summer, start hair school in the fall (where?? not quite sure yet.)

3. WORK all summer, work all fall/move to slc, start hair school in the winter**All of these options include starting some photography on the side...yes, i'm aiming high.

SO that's what we're lookin at folks. Those are just some of the ideas that my brain has been thinking up lately. Have I mentioned I am SOOOOO READY to be a college graduate!!!! Provo has been good to me but its time for a new adventure.

Song of the day....Dave Barnes new single: White Flag. Obsessed. already...

PEACE and love...